Catharsis Over Heree.

How fast it went by and already I'm starting a new month.
I guess a bunch of things happened and sometimes I always get the feeling that I am falling behind. I mean I see friends doing this and that with their extra curriculars and all that junkthat it realy puts me down, but in some way it makes me driven to want to do something and prove to them that I am something better, but then that idea slowly dies away and then I'm back into a cycle.

That epiphany I'm waiting for still hasn't hit me yet, but I hope it will soon, or unless I force myself to have a better understanding and steal.
There's one decision I had made and I think it has shed a little more light in my life, and that choice was to be aggressive and tough in wrestling. I know I have a long way to go to make varsity but it's definitely in my reach and I will push everyone that's in my way, out. Not only am I really frustrated by my lack of determination but also by my span of intensity. Things never last long for me and it's the same for wrestling. I get good when this burst of energy comes, but when I stop, I'm like a sitting duck. But like coach says, "When it hurts, work harder." FML~