Catharsis Over Heree.

Am I? I don't know. I love you so much I just want you all to myself. Maybe I can't. You won't let me in and it bothers me. It's pretty much the whole reason I feel the way I do everyday. I wish you can treat me like somebody, I know I deserve more, but you won't give me any. There are days when we're great together; many times it's the opposite. It happens more everyday, more often. I try not to, I'm so deeply in love with you that's it's driving me insane. Can you open up to me and treat me like your boyfriend, not just someone you hold hands with? Please, that's all I'm asking for. But then again, maybe I'm asking for too much.

Adopt-a-confidant time. Think I need to tell someone what I think. Nothing bad. Just stuff that is good to talk about. HaHa. Up for another bio night?
Finally, gonna go a hit the gym tomorrow. I swear I am weak as fuck. Don't tthink I can curl 30s anymore. Shit. But, I promise my girl that I'll try to stick with her and tell ehr how to work out the best. We'll see. dedication? hardly.

Sometimes we're fine, others not so much. All I ask is for that little something that makes me feel like I'm part of your life, that I'm someone different. Something that's just missing. Maybe I'm asking too much. Perhaps, I've gotten too attached. Maybe this means that I truly, honestly do love you. I just want a sense of security knowing that you won't wake up the next day feeling different. So please, tell me about yourself.

I make stupid mistakes. I get it.

It's been a blur, well, not really. But sometimes I'm just left with the what-ifs. I always have the "I know ...... this and that" about what to do problem is I never do them. I think that I'm just afraid and then chicken out on the little things that matter. I feel like a nuisance leaving me to do things that I regret. I've never fallen for someone this hard, it's the first time where I'm aware of what I'm doing. There have been those great times. So let's keep it going.